Life is in a spin and as I am whirling through the morning I catch a glimpse of my altar. It has been unattended for days and even worse, a half empty and cold cup of coffee seems to desecrate this most sacred space. How in the world did my dirty coffee cup become an altar item? As I pick it up, I’m certain I hear Her say, “I think it’s time for a coffee break!”
Possibly more than any other season, it is in this time of total disarray that I most appreciate the relationship built with the Goddess. Because she lives within and through me, she guides my hand as I rinse and then refill the cup. Together we walk to the yard and step into Nature for a much needed break from whatever circumstances have drawn the winds of chaos.
Taking a deep breath I sip the coffee. I notice that even at HER altar, which is all of Nature, there is often a seeming state of disarray. Why is it that I recognize the inherent beauty of Nature regardless of how untidy things are, yet I sometimes fail to recognize the same inherent beauty upon the altar of my own life?
Total disarray and chaos are certainly challenging energies yet they are as important in living a magical life as the energies more easily engaged. They remind me that beauty isn’t always “pretty” and that while there is an order to creation, creating a mess is often part of the process. For me, the real lesson is learning how to be in the whirl of the energy without making the mess larger than it actually is by imagining the worst. I can also error by minimizing or ignoring a messy situation. Perhaps this is where we truly hone the skill of right use and direction of our imagination. And, the place most appropriate for that work to be done … is my own altar.
Left unattended the altar of my life can lose some energetic qualities and yet, it is never really desecrated unless I INTENTIONALLY make it so. Mess doesn’t separate me from the Goddess nor does it make my life less than sacred. It simply shows me where I can re-imagine the beautiful, redefine the circumstances I am experiencing and reset the course of the day.
Coffee break with the Goddess is complete. After rinsing my cup I fill it with water and some freshly picked flowers. Returning to my altar I offer a prayer for patience and again place the coffee cup therein. This time, I am paying attention as I imagine all of the beauty present at Her altar expressing through my own.